It is totally normal to fear the side effects of medication. The best thing to do is to take all of your concerns to your doctor. I tend to chart or graph things for myself and my doctor. I chart mood changes on and off medications and keep records of anything that may be a possible bad side effect. Usually the doctors listen to concerns and may provide alternative medications that don't have severe reactions to them. You are perfectly normal for having these concerns.

Wishing you the very best.