Clouds_and_sun,

I'm sorry you're feeling so lonely and low! Please feel free to message me as well.
I know you said you'd like to have someone to talk to every day. I can't promise this, as I (especially when I will hopefully go back to work) just don't manage to be online all the time and sometimes - like the last two weeks - I have such a bad time that I can't think straight and am not in a good position to advise anyone.

I agree with what the others said above about trying to have friends in real life as well as online or at least having a number of acquaintances.

I do hope that things start getting better for you very soon, Clouds_and_Sun!
I know that you have been in such a bad place for quite some time now. I know this place from last year and also the last few weeks.

Take care of yourself,

Shadow-world