Starting over again today. Tried to go to my old meeting last night to find out that they've gotten rid of it in the year I've been gone. Not thinking of undertaking AA again all the way, was more looking for a place to go last night. But I've come to the realization that drinking only treats the symptoms (tight chest, sadness, anger, inadequate feelings) rather than the problem (anxiety, depression, relational dysfunction). Kind of like treating a sore throat from an ear infection with cough drops rather than antibiotics. So that's where I am today. Best wishes to everyone here.