Thank you, I will always remember my girls. And I will see them as much as I can. Those girls probably saved my life. And that is the only time i have made that statement and will be the only time I ever will. You know what else worries me? If I ever meet somebody else. I'm going to have trust issues and it won't be there fault it will be mine. How can I ever feel like somebody can love me again if I thought I had that person and in a matter of two hours gave up almost 4 years and a family. I just don't know how I will ever believe it if somebody tells me they love me. I will always have in the back of my mind that there is always somebody better then me. I hate thinking that but I can't help but feel that is true and it may screw up any potential relationship I may have in the future