Yeah, it's not set in stone yet.

When they send me approval I have to go down and take some placement tests. I could do like the last time and just not go and take them.

Not sure if that's the best choice though. My biggest concern is having to
support myself, and try to go to school, all while managing my bi-polar.

It's apparent to me that I'm going to have to learn to manage my bi-polar and multiple things in life eventually. It's just that right now I'm in a really bad situation.

I've been wishing that I get approved for assistance so I wouldn't have to try to work a really demanding job full time and then go and try to go to school.

Sadly, I dropped out of a course in vocational school due to the above concerns. I probably would have been better off had I finished that class.

It would be great to have the chance to use the system the way it's meant to be used, to get up off the ground and back on your feet.

But who knows.....
Most don't understand how difficult it is to get yourself together and get off to a good start when you battle a mental health condition. Trust me, I have no plans on collecting checks and just laying around watching TV for the rest of my life. I've dreams that I'd like to pursue. Without those dreams there would be a high probability that I would try to kill myself again.

Sounds grim, but I'm just being honest.