I guess that makes it a FUO, instead of a UFO ......

I have been just crashingly depressed all day, and it feels like it's going to stick around for a while. I see my pdoc next week. Last time, he was ready to let me stretch it out to 2 months, and I said no, because every time we do that, I end up crashing, bad, before the 2 months is up and having to come in. Now I'm crashing before a MONTH is up!

I got 2 job rejections today, which I expected, so not a big deal except that I'm desperate for money and something to do. I have friends from home coming to visit me this weekend, which should make me happy. My bloodwork all turned up decently, which should make me happy. But I just feel like crap instead. And I feel bad for whining about it, because I feel like that's all I ever do here -- I apologize for being so unsupportive and only popping up when I need to ******. I wish I were a better friend.

I'd been feeling pretty good, actually, up to today, and then, for no apparent reason, BOOM -- life sucks.

Depression sucks, too.

Bah humbug.

Candy