ok so it's only taken me 6 months to get here, but I once again have 3 months clean and sober. I know it's not a huge amount of time, and I've been here before, but I'm still happy. The rest of my life is completely upside down at the moment and sometimes it seems like the only thing I have going for me is that I'm sober, so I can at least deal with stuff. I still get occassional thoughts of using, but I'm usually able to make them go away pretty fast by playing the tape to the end, and that's not pretty.

So today, I'm happy.

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