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Originally Posted by Nightlight
It's more than an average patient doctor relationship for me. My T's given me things that my parents were unable to give to me, including a lot of emotional support. She's witnessed me moving through dark places, and she's been there to guide the way through them, and out the other side. I have a lot of respect and admiration for her and all of the things she brings to the relationship. I've known her for a number of years now and have grown to care about her as a person. So I do personally wish the amount of caring between us was more equal. Although we've talked a bit around the subject, I don't think she cares about me in quite the same way as I care about her. I think it's okay not to need love from your therapist though, and you're definitely not the only person who feels that way.
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Yeah, it was a bit of oversimplification on my part- but I think it is still closer to doc- patient relationship than to any other kind- you are paying for it, it should help you, T has studied this area of expertise and it's purely one-sided.
I too care about my T-have known him for 5 years, still think he's a pretty decent guy and am deeply grateful for what he's done for me but that's about it. I don't love him- how could I when I know him "only" in his Ts role. More importantly, I wouldn't feel safe in that RS knowing he feel stg towards me. I don't mean it in a sexual way- I'm pretty sure I can trust him on that.What I mean is how could I then share with him how I feel and all the stupid things I do to harm myself without him being affected by it? Right now I know I can tell him everything and he can take it, keep his head clear of unwanted emotions and help me with it- I need this more than I need his love.
Also, as I have already said, I can hate him sometimes and don't feel guilty about it
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