The other is already in prison facing the death penalty for armed kidnapping and first degree murder, where he tortured a man for 4days before burying him alive. In the news papers, they said he bragged to hia cell mate about a 14 year old girl that worshiped him, and he would use it to sexually satisfy himself. I knew he was talking about me, i never willingly went for him, but he did know how much i looked up to him. That still eatsaway at me, like i was his trophy. The other man, i confronted. He apologized for laughing at me after the first night but never for what he did, and actually said i should call him if i wanted to go out and have a good time. Maybe legal action wont help me in this case but right about now, all i want is to see him behind bars. I cant get to the other man considering hes awaiting the death penalty, although numerous times ive considered visiting him to tell him off. But i know hevould just laugh and it would be another story for him to tell. Sorry for posting so many triggers but finally i am free of this guilt too, but dont know where to go from here. If i took legal action against all of the men that sa'd me, id be in court for years. So how else do you move on from the anger? Its boiling inside. I did not deserve any of it! I did not ask for any of it! I did not want it, i do not want this burden i carry. I cant just ignore it, that makes it worse in the long run, so how do i healthily move on from this anger before it eats me alive? I can finally see myself as a child, as a young ignorant teen, and i did not deserve any of it. To look back and see it happening to me, not as i am now but as the child i was and young teen i was, it infuriates me. I just want to scream, rip their hair out, beat them to a pulp then give that girl a hug and comfort her. None of those are options, so what next?!