Esthervirtue,

I agree with Quay--it is important and you are important.

I guess I didn't respond to your post because I'm struggling with this very same thing. Wasn't sure what to say. I think about my T. way too much (huh-- did I just admit that??? )

Ok- so I said it.... now......... about "why". Well, I think for me it's that I've never had that feeling that someone is truly on MY side. He actually listens to ME!! He is accepting in a way I wish others could be to me--- I'm thinking it's like a child/parent type thing, in that it feels like unconditional acceptance. I never got that growing up-- there were always conditions that needed to be met and.. I knew deep down in my heart that I could NEVER meet those expectations to be accepted by my family. And so this acceptance that I feel perhaps is fulfilling a need I've had for so so long--- but then--- what does one do with this feeling?? Is it appropriate to think about someone else so much-- when, like Quay said-- he probably doesn't think much about me until just before my next session. It seems kind of one sided which in itself doesn't seem healthy......

Sometimes I really wonder if -- for certain people-- therapy hurts more than the broken life just left alone??? I don't know-- maybe it's just me and my vulnerability??

Anyway-- I think it's good you posted and I understand where you're coming from.

EV--