I am trying to see this experience as an adventure and write about it. Mt T and pdoc have a severe bipolar 1 disorder. We have tried numerous drug combinations and the only thing they can do for me now is develop healthy routines and work on my coping skills. During a recent episode of mania I completely changed my course in college. I unregistered for my year long clinical psychology program that fulfilled my prerequisites for graduate school. I decided to write a book instead. Now it's too late to turn back. I spent a week hiding under my old fur coat writing on the floor navigating my way through a severe depression. As the depression lifted a severe migraine hit and I writhed in agonizing pain for a week, vomiting and hallucinating, the pain was so debilitating. I try to see these moments as an adventure in altered states of consciousness. When I am pain I live in the moment. I can't think. It is pure meditation. My senses are heightened. I think unconditional acceptance is the key to weathering these brutal storms. I am realizing there are things we can't change. There is something to be learned in every experience in life. I always wanted to be an adventurer as a child. I guess this is the adventure life gave me.