People who survive are stronger than most people. So much of what members here have lived through, and are dealing with now, would snuff out the average person, imo. It's that those who survive being stronger, are usually also more intelligent, and found a way to cope so they would not die.

IMO, that someone here, like you, has suffered needs to be looked at as a reason to celebrate your strength and fortitude!!! For some reason you refused to take the answer others tried to give you... and have continued to work and overcome.

(Try not to think about the "why" of the event...but realize how wonderful a human being you really are, for still being!)