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Hey Anika,
I am and can be quite negative about my illness. I don't think I actually have a good thing to say about this illness. In my head and heart I know I have bipolar and that sometimes I can be quite ill. But then I also can not get my head around the fact that I am ill and will always have this illness plaguing me. My Support Worker has said I need to start going out and about from people who have MH problems. As I live it 24/7. I am scared cause I know people can be quite negative. My friends are great but they all work in care and MH so I am definately around it 24/7.
Hey Merlin,
I have researched quite a lot but I research bipolar and that's it. I have never researched acceptance. So I know I am going to have to do this. I have a WRAP, I keep a daily mood chart and I have been on my meds continulously now for 6 months which is a huge thing for me. I play Badminton once a week, Swimming once a week and I get emotional support from my Support Worker once a week too. In between this I also try and get out and about. I see a CPN- Community Psych Nurse once a month where I can talk about any issues I have etc. I am hoping to volunteer weekly as a youth worker for my local community centre too. So I do, do things to aid my metal wellbeing but it's learning ways to accept I just can't seem to figure out.
Hey TRNRMOM,
I get where you are coming from. We haven't got anyone in the family who has BP or any other MH issues. No-one uses drugs or alcohol. Its like its came out of nowhere. Even thinking back to my Grandparents they were "normal". My folks have spoken of their childhood's and have said they both had "normal" upbringings. We are a very small family of 9 people.
Hey BlueInanna,
I don't understand sometimes why I get manic. Sometimes I do but don't want to control it so I do nothing to stop it and then it escalates. My depression I don't understand. I don't get where it comes from. I have too questioned EVERY happy thought/time I have had. Is it real? Was it all an illusion? I just want to be "normal" and I am finding it hard to get it through my head I will never have a "normal" time. I will always have a topsy turvy time even when I am stable. That is just what life is going to be like. Do I like it NO! But I still don't understand it.
Hey Trippin,
How do I make sure I do not allow it to overtake my life though?
Hey dark night x,
I find it hard to open up to people I don't know about BP. Like I can talk to my friends and a wee bit of this goes to my family. But I find it hard telling people I am taking time out of working to recover. Like it's no-one's business what's wrong with me but cause I am so closed no-one gets a look in, into my life cause I worry people will judge me. It's stupid and I know that. But I can't take the judgement and or the looks people would give me.
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