((((hugs))) for all of you! You need to hear it over and over and over, and I will be here to tell you as often and much as you need to hear it: you have no reason to feel such guilt! No ifs, ands or buts about it! You must begin to hear this... don't counter it in your mind (I can h e a r you! I hear you say, yeah well Sky doesn't really know me, nobody knows what happened... etc)
It DOES NOT MATTER right now. Stomp stomp... NO GUILT NO GUILT NO GUILT! (I can share this because my T has been instilling this into my brain!)
None of us are perfect. BUT that does not make us guilty when it comes to these matters! Yes, perps have trained you into thinking this way, depression adds to the misery... so the very FIRST thing you have to do is at least LISTEN when others (like me

) say... stop that thinking! No guilt. Nope.