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Old Jun 04, 2012, 04:27 PM
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Originally Posted by Nena25 View Post
thanks dark_heart_x !!

Not silly at all and I am going to try it. I have put "smart" on my computer screen to start. :-)
You are right about the self-injury part. I think I really do it to hurt myself...It is one of the things I feel I have any control over anymore. I must work on it though. I do eat if there is food put in front of me I just don't have the energy to cook it myself, shop for myself or do dishes...blah. I did cook and even cleaned the house two weeks ago, but I was on a high. To bad I don't cook a lot and freeze it when I am up that way when i am low i have something to eat in the house.
Next time maybe.
That's actually a really good idea, to cook for depression when your manic....

The cleaning thin, I struggle with cleaning. I am terrible and getting worse. I feel bad about it too. I do the laundry, then can't seem to put it away. I can't keep up with the dishes. I hate to cook to begin with, so that's no fun... I think that messiness is a symptom of the illness in a way. There's that saying "A cluttered desk is evidence of a cluttered mind." Well, I think that's true!

Just remember to be forgiving of yourself. "I didn't put the laundry away but at least I have clean clothes."

Another thing... try to shower. Get to the store and buy yourself a luxurious body soap, like a creamy one. Then take a nice shower. I find that sometimes taking a shower washes the monsters away. It makes me feel human again. When I feel really depressed, I force myself into the shower, and I do actually feel better after. Also, depression causes me to ache physically because I have psychosomatism (my body hurts for imaginary reasons, or something.) So, I think the warm water really helps that.
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