Dark Heart. Thanks for your input. I talked to my PDOC today. He told me that he doesn't see me as a rapid cycler. As far as the obbession, that's not something I see in myself right off the bat, but I will pay more attention to it in the future.

Hamster, I can call him offshore pretty much any time I want, given he is in his office (thank god for senority LOL) but he works the 6 a.m. to 6 p.m. So he is usually in bed by 730-8. He doesn't have a phone in his bedroom so I can't talk to him just before bed anyway, which is usually around 9. Most of the time my meltdowns are after he has gone to bed, so that leaves me with working through them on my own and telling him about them the next morning So far I've only called the head honcho on the rig and made them wake him up once. That was an interesting conversation.