So I have been looking for a forum to just share
and possibly be understood
I am not crazy, but aren't we all?
Or more likely, crazy people do not assume they are crazy?
So what if I just lie to myself and say that I am crazy--
then that would necessarily mean I am not crazy? or no?
but I digest.

so-- I really think I am a god, a shaman god to be precise
if You do not know what a shaman is, which you probably do not
then lookitup on google
I don't have time to explain it to you here
I am feeling sick right now i just took a 750 vicodin and I feel nauseous

I know it sounds crazy to think so
but the feeling and thoughts have somewhat been persisting for a few years
and have been positively affirmed
NO I am not at risk of suicide
but I do think that one of the reasons I am at least a half-god
is that I am not yet dead
I could elaborate, but it is unnecessary
as your belief in my delusion is not my main concern here
I either am a god, or am not
and the only way to test is to try to die again
which will not happen
so it cannot be proven
but nonetheless, it is how I feel
so I share it here

I know there are others that feel this way
but I fear we cannot all be right
so the others who have this 'god' complex
they are delusional
i am not
I should probably be the only one who actually is a god
because we can't all be gods...
or can we?
what is Carl Jung's take on this?
I bet he could settle this issue for me if he was alive

And what did Carl Jung think about Astral Travel and Remote Viewing with third eye?

I believe i can do that

maybe I am just a powerful shaman, and not a god
but I feel like Shinigami god-like creatures are at least looking out for me
this would explain a lot
gods would be much more powerful than I am able to manifest in this dimension

but I am feeling like god usually
and I'm not actually narcissistic
i realized, that I truly am that much better than the majority of the population
my intelligence is in the top 1% of 1% so rougly 1/1000

my EQ is nearly perfect, well, I still have a ways to go before I am truly psychic in the real sense but I am far superior to average EQ

and my SQ (spiritual intelligence) is also up there

so I am quite rare

I'd say one in a billion describes how rare I am

I am also an INTP which should thus make me truly one-of-a-kind

most people are rather bland and replaceable, meaning you could find one of them in each city at least

I am truly a unique individual on this Earth-- never having been born of of me in the past, nor in the future I hope

and in this sense, i am a shaman-god

be well,
have a nice day,
and all the jazz.