I think doing as one is told in recovery will work better than having emotional meltdowns that require staff to stress about it. It hasn't been easy for me in recovery. I liked boozing and drugging. Now I enjoy being clean and sober. It didn't happen quickly and I suffered. I learned to ask for help and go to meetings. Psychiatrists and therapists are better at what they do, than I thought. They can help, but it takes time. AA worked too. I've taken meds. I still take a small dose. no easy answers, it is no blame and no shame. Just worked toward healing, and now I have a good life. I wake up and look forward to the day now. Not before, but I do now. It was all worth it.