Dear (((homealone))) I feel for you, in your pain. I have been reading some of the responses to you... and finally think I can also say something that might help.

I see where you are in middle TN. Talk about the Bible belt! While I don't know what denomination of religion you sought help at, I am sorry for the ignorance of so many of our "Godly" leaders! Please consider seeking the support you deserve within another church, or faith.

I know my church here is quite large... and there are many different types of ministers... and ministries. Sometimes a certain faith has a carte blanche response, as dictated by superiors. But there are those churches, whose pastors have taken time to extend their studies into the real problems of real ppl. (This was not the case some 20 years ago, when nearly NO ministers received any real seminary training concerning anything like abuse.)

But I perceive your being PO'd is not mainly with the church, but with God. And you would be joining a large group of US who haven't quite figured out why God "allows" such things to happen... He condemns those who harms children... we understand the free will of man... but... you are quite allowed to "reason" this out with Him.

Joyce Meyers is quite a speaker, and often on the edge of ideas.. she follows a few men in her thinking, and wishes (such as Deepak Chopra and Dwayne Dyer)...

I send you some of my energy, what I have to give, and hope that you will be able to find the support you need.. and deserve. Try not to judge the world, or the church as a whole, because of some ignorant ppl.

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