((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))
I hear YOU and I totally understand where you are coming from and where you at right now in life.... I can honesty says that I started to get better after putting in my 10 years of constant therapy and inner work on self - the EMDR really helped along this path as well.
Hang in there and it will work out in due time.... PRAYERS going up for YOU!
LoVe,
Rhapsody -