not easy situation at all i don't know why i'm doing whatever i'm doing. i definitely know i will neva be able to forgive my cheat husband inspite of the fact that he appologised and said he really don't know how he happened to have done that "a brief moment of weakness" but what he doesn't see is all the hurt he's caused me that brief moment why should it have existed if he was as he said happy with our couple.

so far i know i'm try my best since we are married to be up to the marriage even that i went throught several treatments to be able to give him a child only for him but in that moment i was under treatment he was cheating on me but he was accompanying me to all doctors..how cheap how deceiving.

i feel unwanted not good enough which made him take the step and today as i woke up all the messages i read going on between he and his "keep" came back to my mind and suddenly inspite of all my effort to wash them away i got really angry and wanted to hit my husband but i preferred to keep away and didnt even look at him before living for work. now i think i'll neva be able to live at peace neva will trust again i keep checking his mobile but for sure he will take great precautions now because i think he might do it again because it the second time already but first one the girl didnt play but second one the ***** got in the game.

i dont want to live with such a guy but i also want to be with him to poison his life a little bit as and when i can..

now he is expecting me to live back in our relationship as if everything is fine as he appologised but how could he expect me to. and he's back enjoying his life going out with frends and planning his future looking for better job going ahead with higher studies and me what about me. i dont' intend to stay where i am.

i think i'm frustrated i'll go mad

i can't forgive and forget.