I guess I must be dreaming about it because I wake up thinking about it in the middle of the night. I asked for the trigger icon and they gave me a new thread so maybe I might as well finish it. I think it was a mistake to walk back into this.

I had a very good therapist the first time I went in. I was beginning to function as a person for the first time and have a sense of myself. He dumped me out of therapy very abruptly and I don't know why. He was cruel about it too, though he did give me the if you ever need me speech which made no sense to me because I felt like I needed at the time. It shut me down and Little Girl was literally running through the house crying. This was driving my husband crazy so he sought to pacify me by tuning in this counseling advice radio show. Little Girl was a very persistant and unwelcome caller I think. Eventually he invited her down to his office in Coral Gables which was far away from where we lived. He was a predator. He used abusive coercive techniques to obtain "consent" Little Girl is an appeaser. She will make nice chit chat with rapists and be their friend. "Love 'em anyway, no matter what" When he got done Little Girl needed to douche when she got home to avoid a bad infection. Hubby just stared at her with big eyes but nothing was ever said about it.