I'm sorry, I hate to complain. I just mean i really value your opinions. Other than my bf I don't really have anyone I can confide in or get feedback from. I great appreciate your advice and hope I don't come across as a whiner!

So I should do it then? He just posted on his blog ( he is a personal trainer) about how awesome and supportive I was during his half marathon on Sunday. It's like making me feel even worse about it all.