OMG!!!!!! I just got the most amazing news!!!! I talked with the court and legal services this morning. It turns out that 5 years ago the judge never filed the orders, so the last orders the court has are the ones giving me sole physical and legal custody!!! I never lost custody afterall! I absolutely cannot believe that she lived through that hell for 5 years for nothing! So now, I don't have to send her back, or be intimidated by my ex!! Woohoo!