I have a list of labels from my therapist. Mostly I just want to get by and have a life of some kind until I'm old enough to retire. I recogize a lot of people that are where I was. Is it fake to remember that and want to fit in here because mostly I can't in the "normal" world if there is such a thing? I still have trouble and lose my job occasionally. I know that right triggers can knock down the dominos and I'm working to eliminate them. Not sure if it's healthy looking back though.