So my brother moved back to this side of the country only 40 miles away. He moved in with mom. Just found out he's planning to buy a house in my small town, within a 10 mile radius. Last night mom was saying "ya'll can hang out all the time". Hes even already taken a job here. When she made her comment i didnt say anything, didnt know what to say. I realized this morning, as what was mentioned above, i may not be able to stop all bad things from happening but it is up to me how i handle it.i will no longer be a pushover, i will no longer hurt myself in order to avoid their pain. Its up to me to make the best i can out of any given situation, not let the situation and others get the best of me because for one reason or another i cant stand my ground. Ive never really had someone on my side in these situations because i never told anyone many things, now that my fiance is on my side, its about time i get on my own side.

With my brother, mom, dad, even at work, when the guys are always walking up behind me poking me on my side. I am so jumpy at work because of this and never said anything because i didnt want them in trouble for something i cant tolerate. But now i see i shouldnt have to tolerate it, i have a right to not worry about that at work, and i am responsible for enfoursing my rights. It will be hard and i cant do anything about my past pain but i can lower my chances of future pain, i only need to be on my own side and not give in to others expectations. It will be hard but i have to do it