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NinaNina · Jun 05, 2012, 02:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Leed

HOn ~ When people are depressed for a long period of time, they become sort of "numb" to their emotions. NOthing seems to phase them. Nothing! I lived in that world for a long time. If someone died, I felt numb. I couldn't even cry. I sympathized (sort of) for the family, but I didn't FEEL anything. That made me feel guilty. And it made me feel alien.

Because of that (and many other things) I ended up in the mental ward of a hospital for awhile. And I was glad. I shouldn't have waited so long to check myself in. It was the best thing I ever did for myself.

You're depressed -- you need a therapist. YOu need someone to talk to and get to the bottom of what's been "getting to" you for so long. It might be painful at first, but it's worth it. Please get the help you need.

If you cannot afford therapy, then at LEAST see your medical doctor. He CAN help you. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

Thank you for your reply and suggestions.

I honestly do not think I am depressed, or that I am in denial about being depressed. I just do not think its to that extent. I do not feel numb. I feel every emotion still, I do feel happiness and excitement, I feel sad, I feel loss, grief, worry, sympathy and any normal emotion. But I have a recurring anxiety and stress. The past year for me has held a lot of changes, good and bad. Sometimes I think maybe I'm just having a hard time keeping up. I have had many people let me down that were close to me. I feel like its taken a toll on my self confidence and how I feel about myself in general. I think maybe, I'm just in an emotional rut. I have considered myself as suffering depression, but when I read people's thoughts and experiences about their own depression, especially on this site, I do not feel like that is what I'm going through. Thank you again, though, I really do appreciate all of your insight.