Yes I have a T, she really thinks I have to get my PTSD under control in order to tackle the cutting. I need to try EMDR but I can't afford it right now.

I was doing OK and stopped self injuring for 6 years but early last year I had a miscarriage and my PTSD came back full force and I found out I have bipolar disorder so it has been a roller coaster.

I'm dealing with an impending job loss due to the program closing down, having to move my family in with my inlaws 2 hours away, trying to find a new job, and trying to coordinate getting rid of things here and preparing and sending my husband there to deal with his pack rat parents and make space for us. So the stress levels are phenomenal.

I hope things will get better and not having to pay rent and getting some help with our 2 year old will help with that. It's just the next several weeks of getting to that point.

I really just needed to vent so thank you for listening. I will see my T on Thursday.