It certainly sound like it's a tough holiday for you and you aren't alone in that sense. You said you have a bunch of problems...I'm sorry to hear that. Are you able to maybe tackle one at a time? Make a goal for the month at working on getting info on how you would get your GED, for example? I only say this bc maybe u might feel a little better if u have a plan in place to make changes, even if they are little changes.

Do u have anyone in your life to support u right now?

Do u have anything u might want to do to celebrate your birthday? Maybe u can start a new tradition of doing something you really enjoy every year on your birthday. Whatever you decide, I'm wishing you a happy one. I'd sing you Happy Birthday too, if I could. Hang in there buddy.