I'm visiting my son and feel like a horrible parent. I don't know if it's because we could only stay for a week, or I'm depressed, or it's just that he's turning 10, or it's because I won't see him for another two months but I really just don't want to be here. He's so happy here but seems to be less and less happy while we're here. I don't know if I want him to come home.

In a months time he's gone from understanding why we take medication to wanting us off medication because "it's not truly us" and "we're not crazy". I spent 2 hours last night explaining why we take our medication, why his dad can't work yet, our Dx's and what that means for our family. I really wish that this was easy for us but it's not