This is my problem: I'm trying to solve it all; like this world is one giant puzzle and we are the cogs turning, one-by-one until we finally unlock whatever it is that's supposed to be unlocked. Call it the grand scheme of things, the divine plan, destiny, or even the entropic decay of the universe from the big bang ticking away until it reaches nothingness once more, whatever it is you like....there's a pattern to it and I'm trying to figure it out.

This being said, I think I'm trying to escape depression by mentally searching for a deeper meaning in everything; that there has to be more to life than constant misery, unhappiness, loneliness, and mental anguish. I'm always day dreaming and losing track of time. Information just passes through one ear and right out the other and before I know it, 10 minutes have just passed by into oblivion.

Sound familiar? Am I really the only one that escapes like this?