The thing is, I'm older, I know I am all that, Lol. Really, I'm in better shape, look better, have realized my good qualities & my bad with confidence. Have taken a lot of chances on me in the last 6 years, just to end up crazy as a bed bug & depressed. In the last two years I have had to except that people are really not nice & who you think they are. Wow, I started 6 years ago confident and excited about starting over after 47 years just to end up finding out in the last two years that you shouldn't turn your back or fall in love because everyone is basically out for themselves & will hurt you for know reason at all. Having a hard time excepting that I was delusional all my life & reality sucks. My heart hurts & it won't stop & dont think it ever will. If I have to pop pills just function, wha'ts the poing.