thank you everyone for the support and good wishes.. unfortunately i don't enjoy such among my family truly speaking i haven't found anyone i can lean on to speak about all this that's why i went in search and found PC where i can talk my heart out. here i can merely say mum i don't want to be with him or mother in law your son is a crap and he hits me even if he was found guilty f cheating on me. no one would believe me. on the night i discovered all this and asked him for explanation he was denying then finally he started admitting slowly bits and pieces and when i started assembling i was discovering new things which he wouldn't give explanation about he would just say sorry and be done with it..
in fact i landed on him facebook page personal chat message between the keep and him and the time he was chatting i was at work late shift and my daughter was sitting beside him in the same room how disgusting he didnt even see our child's face which could prevented him from having such a conversation with another woman a gross conversation about their experience and all.
it pains me inside and now he says he doesnt even know what he typed so i printed the whole conversation for him to read and be fresh and give explanation but he got really angry seeing that and hit me in front of our child.
for me he didnt have time but for her he had for me we couldnt go out dinner on our wedding anniversary but he could take her to lunch
since our marriage we have always been through financial crisis and i would always help out was buying everything we need at home was living with his parents say his parents were living off my salary and in return their son ditched me. i dont want to forgive such a crap of a man now he claims he loves me telling me not to leave him.
one thing he should know is how to take care of his wife but he always overlooked that and was busy taking care of someone else. endless nights i would cry alone coz supposedely he is working late but now i wonder what kind of work that was becoz now he has the same work same post but is home very early when i work early shifts he comes pick me up to go home so what work he was doing?????
i keep tormenting my mind with all those thoughts one day i'm ok on the other i don't want him in front of me and now he sayins we should get another child and i would be better but i don't want to get in that trap as his whole family would point at me after the second pregnacy that i was blaming him for infidelity so how come i'm pregnant for him again....
if only i could i would have got away from him with my child but i don't earn that much to sustain my child's schooling and all.
but friends he has changed he helps a lot at home now and says he will take care of all our household expence haven't yet however so that i can do my things which i have concealed from doing concentrating only on my house needs and child needs. but now is see i have been doing all this for nothing as the reward i got is deceiving.
now when i see him a changed man i say it's becoz he cheated now trying to repent.not helping my mind these thoughts..
i can't rely on anyone :-(