TD, I'm not quite sure what to say other than I'm thinking of you. I know what you mean about sometimes not getting the responses that I want to some of my posts - it happens sometimes to all of us and doesn't indicate anything about you (I can say this but not always believe it myself...).

You're going through a lot of stuff and it is really hard. I can't remember where you are with either moving to once a week w/ your current counselor or trying to find one who can accommodate this need. Whichever the situation, I wish you luck and am always silently cheering you on (even when I don't post - don't have good internet access for the next 5 weeks while I'm out of town). Sending you lots of safe hugs.