(((aiv))),

Oh, I am sorry that your mother has not responded well in therapy. However losing a child is something that many women truely never get over, they just have to learn to try to find ways to allow themselves to continue to at least try to find a way to appreciate life or channel their grief into something positive.

I met a women just last month that lost her son on his birthday. He was in a motorcycle accident. She confided in me that she is trying hard to be there for her daughter and her grand child, but she said that it is just so hard and she has such a hole in her heart. This woman was a nice woman and she told me that every day she just feels so much loss and there doesn't seem to be anything to fill that emtyness.

Also with a loss like this the healing ability depends on what a person has in their personal background to also tap onto to help them empower themselves inspite of the pain of the loss. Your mother may not really have a strong enough foundation to respond in therapy.

For you though, you have a good man and a life ahead of you. You are taking the right path in seeking the guidance from a therapist so you can find your own way to finally giving yourself permission to accept life and live YOUR life. Your goal with theapy is to be able to allow yourself to finally express all YOUR emotions and confusion to a point where you find PEACE WITHIN YOURSELF and GIVE YOURSELF PERMISSION TO FINALLY settle into YOUR OWN LIFE and JUST BE YOU and ACCEPT YOURSELF.

That is what I have been working on myself and everyone is different and it does take time to finally relax into yourself and finally just be and accept and even forgive.

You are going to be ok, just keep trying to work through it all one day at a time, and know it is not going to happen overnight, but if you make the decision that YOU ARE WILLING TO DO THE WORK AND YOU WANT TO HEAL, you will heal. And you will even grow and have more depth to you as well.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes