The mind works in peculiar ways. I was never able to understand mine, yet I figured there's no need to understand it. It's just is the way it is and I have to accept it. I am highly sensitive to emotions. To me happy moments can be 10 times more enjoyable than to normal people and unhappy moments can feel 10 times worse than normally.

There's a very strong link between my mind and my body. A few years ago something made me so angry that I instantly became myopic at both eyes. Things like this happen and I have gotten used to them. I have accepted them as the cost for being able to live happy moments at incredible heights.

Yet what I have been going through the past days is indescribable and I hope no one reaches this point. My emotions are triggered by very peculiar stimulus so don't expect any of the following to make much sense. Few days ago I met this beautiful person with whom I got the chance to talk. I came to hear his incredible life story which literally shattered me and made me split into pieces. What the story was about isn't of any importance. What shocked me was the fact that he was willing to share such a profound, personal story with someone he had just met. To most of you this would mean nothing. Thinking about it in a rational way it doesn't mean anything to me either.

Yet since then I have severe nausea, fever and I haven't been eating or sleeping for 3 days. Getting out of bed is harder and harder. I feel like drowning in my own mind. Every second is as heavy as rock. I just want to know if there's anyone who had something like this before and if there's any way to get back to normal. Pills, treatment, tea, relaxation exercises, maybe words, anything what might help. :-)

Thank you,
Warna