I have a lot of the same issues. It's easier online for me than IRL. I'm not actually sure how good I've ever been at being funny and putting on a happy face and all that, but I did find that when I was depressed all the time I drove people away. Even now, I'm discovering that the way I interact with people is rarely a good deal for them, as I tend to expect people to take care of what I need, and I don't think I can provide anything that would help them. What I am trying to do about it is to be more mindful of the impact that I have on other people, and what I could do to reciprocate more.

You don't have to be someone you aren't, and sometimes you do need to talk about your unhappy feelings. I guess the point is to be aware of what it is like for people to hang around with you. If it usually isn't a pleasant experience, people are going to spend more time with other friends, and who could really blame them? Personally, I'm not comfortable with people who are all bubbly constantly, and that wouldn't be me to act like that either. People can tell when you're faking something like that. But we need to watch the give and take and make sure that we don't just drain the energy out of our friends.

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