I know the feeling of not thinking you should be here and there are so many others that are worst off.
I am partically in denial about my depression. I dont want to think it could happen to me. I have alot going for me but i dont want any of it. I dont want to be an adult and I dont want to make my own decisions. I am just so tired. I cant explain it more than that. But I feel like I should be able to pull myself out of it.....and that isn;t working....so not feeling like you should be here is a common thought process I think