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Originally Posted by pendulum328
I grew up in a home where trust and suspicion was alway an issue. both my parents were liberated from death camps in 1945. i was born in 1949 and raised from birth with these thoughts as part of my upbringing. in 1965 i developed bipolar 1 entering mental hospitals to figure me out. 1970 was the year i was put on lithium this was a difficult journey.
never was able to develope friendships and had issues in trust and suspicions for no apparent reasons. i also mistrusted my first wife of 40 years using triggers and bits of information to create stories in my mind that did not exist. these stories would turn into compulsive whirl winds in my mind over and over.
i want to bring my new wife into this but she believes i was not diagnosed properly years ago.
i fear that my wife of 8 months will not understand my mistrust and distroy my relationship. this situation puts me in a corner that i fear.
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Bipolar is something that a lot of people don't understand. If she doesn't think you have bipolar, what does she think it is instead??
Whirlwind thoughts spiraling out of control is a big issue for me as well. Tell your fears to your wife about how your mistrust issues will ruin the relationship. Make it clear to her that you would see benefit for her to go with you to your therapist. Sometimes hearing things from a professional has a different effect than when your loved one says it.
Just the fact that you are asking for help is good. At least you are aware of your issue and working toward resolving it. Not everyone is willing to do that.