Ditto for me for pretty much all of what each of you has said. I get so tired of the mood swings. When I am depressed I can't even remember what it was like to have any energy at all, and when I am hypo-manic, like right now, I feel agitated with a bunch of energy pent up inside of me that I don't know how to release. I have to watch how I present myself when at work, and I can't wait to get the task at hand, whatever it may be, behind me. Lack of focus is a big issue with me on both ends of the spectrum. I used to love reading, but now as I get older and this disease progresses, I can't settle my mind long enough to do any peaceful activities.
I am so sorry that we all have to deal with this!
Bluemountains