Locate the trigger. Take care of the trigger and you will no longer be replaying and acting out that piece of memory.

Every time I tell something I have been programed not to tell I experience voices that tell me to shut up and so on and its accompanied by a very strong urge to hurt myself in some way.

At first I thought it was just because I was in therapy. But then when I started paying attention to the times when I would get hurt while not being aware I realized it happened only when I told SKR very detailed things.

Once SKR and I realized that my telling details was the trigger for those voices and urges we took things slower and built up my ability to go against those voices and urges.