Suddenly I’m someone I don’t know
When you walk back into my life
Your company is hesitantly welcomed
Knowing I’ll pay the price.

For now you’re just a want
Soon you’ll become a need
It won’t take long before I lose control
It’s you who will take the lead.

It’s a downward spiral
With you by my side
I’ve tried to run
But there’s nowhere to hide.

As your grip becomes tighter
The want becomes more
Many times
I’ve been here before.

You have a hold on me
I can’t break free
It feels like this is the way
It’s supposed to be.

I’ve been given a chance too many
Time is running out
If only I was like others
That could live without.

You’re all that’s on my mind
I can’t get you out of my head
Someday I feel the only way out
Is if I wind up dead.

You’re a secret of mine
Only known by few
What would everyone say
If only they knew.

I want to run
I want to hide
This addiction
It is killing me inside.

Shelley
6-6-12