Hi everyone,

I am new to the forum....and I guess still in denial about my depression. I have been dealing with it for over a year now....not quite understanding what is going on. I was just waiting to snap out of it and guess what I am still waiting. I am in talk therapy and have recently tried 2 different types of antidepressents....one making me feel 10 times worst.....I couldnt control my emotions at all. I have so much to be thankful for but I cant seem to look at all the good things I have. I am so focus on what I dont have and I am scared I will never find love and happiness in life. And I am so scared to be alone. I am beside myself most of the time but then I will get involved in something and I will feel normal for just a few hours so it makes me wonder how depressed can I be. I am just afraid I am doing this to myself. I want to know just how to fix it. And my biggest problem is I am in a long distance relationship and I cant seem to be able to tell him what is going on in my life. and tha worries me....infacteverything worries me. I just to be one that thrives on stress....not I cant handle any of. Tell me what to do....how to return back to the fun Lauren I know is somewhere in there