Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I appreciate them so much. I saw my surgeon today and the hematoma (I believe that is what it was called) has finally pretty much stopped bleeding. He said it may still bleed off and on for a few days but the incision looks good and there is no infection. They took out the staples (29) Monday and he drained as much as he could from the hematoma. I am in great pain and it is hard to sit for very long at a time. My pain meds really make me so tired and slow to think, but it still seems like they are not cutting through the pain for long periods.

He did change my pain med today and said that he is not surprised at my pain as I have been through a lot. Even sitting here now I am really hurting and I just woke up from taking a nap for over a couple of hours. I am finding it hard to not do anything yet at the same time I cannot find the strength or even feel up to doing much if anything. (If that made any sense.) Seems I cry and am very emotional most of the time. I feel bad and do not mean or want to complain. Usually I handle pain pretty good but not this time. I am drained and after having 5 major surgeries in about two years, I am struggling recovering as fast as the past surgeries. This surgery was more invasive and he did much more so I am trying to be patient with myself, but I am not doing so well.

I have wonderful help and am not alone, for that I am so thankful. Seems I have been not such a good patient though as the pain makes it hard but I do try. I am just very grateful and thankful I am not alone, God has blessed me with the best help, care, and understanding even when I am hurting and feel undeservant. I really thank you all for your prayers and thoughts, for being here and for your kind words. I love you all and could not thank you enough and words could not say enough what you all mean to me. I am trying to rest and get better as soon as I can. Loving thoughts and hugs to you all. Always.

dps