Hello and welcome to PC! I'm glad you are here! You started off by saying you don't know if you are suffering from depression. I obviously don't know either, but you described many of the symptoms I have when depressed. You have no energy, you can't sleep well, you keep crying all the time. That pretty much describes me in depression. Is seeking help a possibility? Going to your doctor? A therapist? Something to try and figure out what is happening with you so you can try to get better. I hear you saying you want to feel better but you can't pull yourself out of it. That is very common with depression. And that's sad that your family says you are being dramatic and that you have everything going for you. That can't help. I hope you are able to take some steps, whatever they may be, to move towards feeling better. Thanks for posting and I hope to hear more from you!