I am scheduled to have a colonoscopy on Friday, have spent the past three days in agony because i can't take my codine in prep for friday, I am supposed to have someone stay with me for 24 hours after the procedure the problem is i am a full time wheelchair user and i live alone in an unadapted house with no family support, my carer only works 20 hours per week and i have already used half of these. My few friends are either too busy or ill themselves. I am scared that they will refuse to do the procedure if they find out i have no one to look after me. I am also scared as this will be my first time under sedation and although i know things are not right inside me i am scared they will say nothing is wrong, as this is all i seem to hear from my doctor. I really want to take my cuddly snowman with me but do not want to draw attention to my need for comfort as i know i will have to prove strong enough to look after myself.