Thank you ((Myself))

Your insight helped me allot. I talked to my Therapist this afternoon, and brought up this issue, finally. He reaffirmed that what I was probably sensing was his personal reactions to what I related in my writing, and his therapeutic approach as he witnesses me trying to process the incident. I guess I was projecting my own inability to process this onto him, sometimes with this stuff its like pulling teeth, the dissociative proccess kicks in a selective mutism, literally shuting down my ability to relate to him what it is I am feeling...I get the deer in the headlight thing going..and I stop talking or loose my voice..and I am at a loss on how to release the block this creates..usually once I have narrative going about the trauma and can identify the feelings, images, then it processes and it will loose some of it's energy, but until I start to talk it thru..its an awful place to be stuck in...kinda like a silent tornado that no one can see but you..

Thank you Myself