Welcome to the forum, I am glad that you are actively seeking help in this problem. It is obvious that you want to keep from hurting anyone again. Seeking a therapist would be your first step in this. A therapist will help you identify what it is in you that caused you to do what you did and then will help you co-ordinate your efforts by suggesting reading material and/or organizations in your area that can help you.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft