Sanada, take this or leave it if you want. I think that the scars are not ugly. They are a reflection of the pain you have been through and survived! I only have a few that lasted but i look at them and think to myslef, thats where i was. Look at how far i have come. I am reminded of a time filled with so much pain, but now see that life is better. The pain that I lived through makes me a better person. It also reminds me that I don't want to go there again, so I get help when I need it. You are unique, special, and full of wonderful emotions that make you who you are. Be who you are, you are precious.