I've been on a pretty good upswing for the past few weeks, enjoying the extra energy and enthusiasm and generally having a wonderful time despite a few people's concerns that I was too high. Things calmed down for a week or so, then yesterday morning I knew the mood elevation was back with a vengeance.

So I've been flying high, soaring with the eagles, and of course I'm talking and can't shut up!! LOL! Super-productive at work, getting all my admission assessments done, writing my chart notes that I was behind on, just breezing through the work day and running around the building like my head is on fire and my arse is catching.

Then what did I do today but sit down in the marketing director's office and talk her ear off for the next hour and a half!!! She does have a way of eliciting information, but what started innocently enough as a Q & A session about the types of care our assisted living facility provides, wound up as an in-depth discussion of psych disorders in general and my own BP in particular. AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!

It's not like folks can't tell I'm a bit high---even my 21-year-old son noticed and said "Gawd, Mom, what kinda crack have you been smoking?!" But to blather on for over an hour about personal issues, to a woman who's been known to gossip......WTH was I thinking??!!! Now it'll probably be all over the building---my boss knows about my BP, as do the other managers, but it's not something I ordinarily discuss with the rank and file, let alone the residents. I don't want anybody to think I can't handle the job, or for the residents' families to fear for their Mom's or Dad's safety with a bipolar nurse at the helm. CRAP!!!!!